So I have some big news. In 2 weeks my fiance and I will be in court to gain guardianship of a 15 year old child. This is the best thing that could happen for me right now. The reasons behind it aren't necessarily your business but HOLY SHIT i am going to be an active guardian. That means watching over the child. Making sure he is eating 3 times a day + snacks...he needs to grow up big and tall and strong. I have to take him to basketball camp every morning and pretty soon i will have to take him to school. High School at that. The age where drama rules the halls and cuts your throat out. That means quick conversations about girls (dont get me started on these 15 year old crushes =]) about creating his future, guiding him towards his inner passions and successes, getting good grades, going to college( his choice but i would guide him down that path learning from my "mistakes" ) drinking alcohol, his friends. EVERYTHING. I am not scared at the slightest though. I see the kids potential and I want to help him see his. I wish the circumstances were different but they aren't and now the man and I have someone to take care of besides our 2 6 month old puppers. It is giving me a purpose in life again, considering what we went through back in March. It is our time to step up now.
Other than that I have been walking Pita and Jalapeno down to the park every day. To see them run around off this leash is just pure bliss. Have you ever seen a dog smile? Has a dog ever smiled that didnt make you smile? Absolutely not. Everytime. Those little shits wear themselves out there. Free to roam and burn off their energies. Free to be whoever they want. Today Jalapeno has been shitting water if you want to know that. I think its the food. Going to get him something easier to digest. My poor peno.
Ive been thinking of another story to share with you. A story where I make a mistake and suffer dire consequences. I think I have one brewing in my head. Did you know Ive had not only one, but 2 abortions? Yeah some of you might want to kill me for that but I will you to one of my posts below and read my first story. The second one was not an abortion from rape. This one was my choice. If I need to be put in jail for it so be it. At least I will have a place to die that serves me food and forces me to socialize. This is all bull shit, but i will tell you what is not bullshit. Making the choice I made.
Anywhoooo. I will try to cook something up later. Its yoga time,
Love and Rage,
Lyns <3
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