Oozing vs Moist

TW: SH

WHAT A FUCKING STRESSFUL DAY.

You know I havent felt stressed in over 5 years. Terminaly anxious, yeah but no not stressed. See stress is overwhelming. I had been feeling complacent for so long

and now the household has changed and I have realized what life is all about, I sit here on this rock and I preach FAMILY IS EVERYTHING.

Love them. Hold them. Squeeze them and cry with them. (Most) times the adults love the children. Even if there is a struggle going on, that adult (parent/guardian)

still loves that child. I cannot stress enough how overwhelming today was.

The breeze feels sooo amazing on my face, sitting on what I call "The Black Rock" (its a song by O.A.R) that i absolutely love. It is my special place

where I go to feel free, releasing all the stress from the day and all the "Bad" emotions. I just throw them into the lake like skipping a rock and watch it

scoot by further and further into the distance. Moments like these are crucial though. Everything that stressed you out, you did for other people. In this case

3 boys and 1 toddler. Every parent out there:

I SEE HOW DIFFICULT YOUR JOURNEY MUST BE MENTALLY, TO KEEP YOURSELF IN CHECK AND KEEP LIVING THINGS ALIVE. I APPLAUD EVERY PERSON OUT THERE WHO IS

TAKING CARE OF A CHILD AS BEST AS THEY CAN.

Just rambling...

I feel the wind subsiding and the sound of the water crashing over the rocks is like a "Curtain Call"

Shows over people. Curtian closes slowly and the sound fades off into the sunset.

End of episode.

I mean it. I just got through a Self harm episode. HELL YEAH! YOU CAN TOO!

TIME LAPSE

2 HRS 7 MIN

.........

I am painted in red, yet again this time my face. One stripe turns to a full facial. Sticky. Hardening. Strangly satisfying. Absurdly satisfying.

I am sitting here typing this while Pita is licking the shit out of muh mans face. It has been over 5 min. I keep looking over and he has to rotate hands to plug his nose so the dog wont stick its tongue all the way up his nostrils skyrocketing up through his brain and out of his head. Ok 7 minutes and 23 seconds the mans pulls Pita away from his face and takes a deep breath like hes about to go underwater for a lifetime. Pita is my dog by the way.

Peno is my other dog. You remember...he was sick in one of my posts. He is licking away the fine moist red line and all the shame that came oozing out. I am sorry I did this again.

Im not on my Black Rock anymore. I am more teetering over the edge holding on by a tree branch; but I am holding on. Keep fighting crew. Find your black rock and stay.