Stomach bug is gone and thank Allah for that. I hadn't physically felt that sick in some years. Today is our day off. When I say our I mean me and the mans. The dude I reside with. My ride or die, partner in crime, homie g slice. If there has been anyone in this crazy journey of mine who has seen it all, it would be this guy. From suicide attempts, to long nights soaked in red towels on the bathroom floor, to unfaithfulness on my end, 3 run away's, multiple hospitalizations, careless spending, one loss of a child, cooking for me because of my fear of food, 5 jobs, 4 houses, 4 dogs, etc... etc....djsakfjjhfdfkj, this guy has seen it all. I am forever grateful for all he has done and does for me. If it weren't for him, my life would still be total chaos without recognition. Now its just chaos but I'm not oblivious to it anymore. =)
We have kind of a mutual understanding relationship. He keeps me sane while I let him be the biggest gamer nerd alive. I love it though. Most importantly, he loves me and loves me for the right reasons. I used to think the sex with him was just really great and he was super handsome but now I see the purpose of matrimony and a direction for us. Awe I'm getting super honest about love and it is making me uncomfortable again.
My favorite thing to do with him is take long cruises around the lake. I get to smoke some weed and put my music on, he gets to roll down all 4 windows and take us wherever his mind feels like going. The temperature makes all the difference in the world too because when that sunlight is beating down and reddening his bald head and tanning my floppy bat winged arms, it is pure ecstasy! Something entirely spiritual and total mindfulness.
Life is much more tolerable with you right by my side. I cherish every moment i have spent with you. The way you accept me for who I am is all a crazy borderline like me cares about. I am sorry for behavior symptoms. Thank you for not giving up on me.
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